My random thoughts
Mon, Sep. 22nd, 2025 09:39 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
americasuiteheartslike said, ive had a bunch of random thoughts i feel like journaling, so journal i shall do (i sound dumb as hell)
1. so, there’s this girl i kinda like. let’s call her M. i didnt really talk to M at all last year, but during the summer i found out her older brother and my older brother both go this same autism group together. we kinda started hanging out in forced proximity bcuz of that. but M and me go to the same school and actually have some classes together, so now we’re actually friends. but DAMN is she fine and also gay. do you know how fucking hard it is to find a gay girl that im not best friends with??? or worst they’re one of my best friend’s ex girlfriends. but, M is in fact none of the above!! of course i go to one of me and M’s mutual friends to gather info. im not like in love with M or anything, but id totally date her, right? shes super sweet and she also is in my art electives. so i talk to my friend and find out she has a girlfriend (this was a month ago). so yeah, boo hoo but im not no homewreaker. but the mutual friend just texted me and said that M is now single. and not even freshly single, like a couple of weeks. sooooooo yay for me. maybe my lonely ass will finally get some huzz😁
2. am i bipolar? im not trying to self diagnose but did some research and starting thinking. first of all, im pretty sure it runs in my family. my grandma is definitely fucking bipolar but refuses to ever change or get therapy. actually, according to my grandpa, he got her to take bipolar meds for a while when they were still married and it was actually helping her. well, she then stopped taking it and now loves to make my life a living hell. idk, just someone i think about how i act and how it feels like i cant control how i feel and the intensity of my emotions. is there something wrong with my brain or is that just hormones or some shit. that’s probably what my mom would say. who knows, just thoughts.
well, im tired and can’t think of anything else rn. apologies for how horribly written this prob is
-r
1. so, there’s this girl i kinda like. let’s call her M. i didnt really talk to M at all last year, but during the summer i found out her older brother and my older brother both go this same autism group together. we kinda started hanging out in forced proximity bcuz of that. but M and me go to the same school and actually have some classes together, so now we’re actually friends. but DAMN is she fine and also gay. do you know how fucking hard it is to find a gay girl that im not best friends with??? or worst they’re one of my best friend’s ex girlfriends. but, M is in fact none of the above!! of course i go to one of me and M’s mutual friends to gather info. im not like in love with M or anything, but id totally date her, right? shes super sweet and she also is in my art electives. so i talk to my friend and find out she has a girlfriend (this was a month ago). so yeah, boo hoo but im not no homewreaker. but the mutual friend just texted me and said that M is now single. and not even freshly single, like a couple of weeks. sooooooo yay for me. maybe my lonely ass will finally get some huzz😁
2. am i bipolar? im not trying to self diagnose but did some research and starting thinking. first of all, im pretty sure it runs in my family. my grandma is definitely fucking bipolar but refuses to ever change or get therapy. actually, according to my grandpa, he got her to take bipolar meds for a while when they were still married and it was actually helping her. well, she then stopped taking it and now loves to make my life a living hell. idk, just someone i think about how i act and how it feels like i cant control how i feel and the intensity of my emotions. is there something wrong with my brain or is that just hormones or some shit. that’s probably what my mom would say. who knows, just thoughts.
well, im tired and can’t think of anything else rn. apologies for how horribly written this prob is
-r
