crazy life update
Mon, Aug. 11th, 2025 08:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
americasuiteheartsso, ive talked about my ex best friend, lily. if u have read any of my other posts, you know about her. like said in title: crazy fucking life update.
it was the first day of school for me and that went fine, but that’s not the important part. the thing is my mom took some pictures of me and my brother and posted them on her facebook for the first day of school. then, my mom shows me one of the comments under the post. it’s lily’s mom saying that “lily would love to catch up with r” or whatever (i had lost lily’s number for the past 3ish years) after that, lily called me after my mom gave her my number. lily and me talked to each other after almost 3 fucking years! i thought i was never gonna see her ever again. all my angst late night writing for her to just show up again because of my mom’s facebook!!!?????
and we talked for like 10 minutes, just to catch up. she still does theater, just bigger roles than in elementary of course. she doesn’t like the school she goes to but she’s excited to finally leave off to a new highschool next year. she said she hasn’t thought about our old friend group in forever (wish I could relate). i just kinda awkwardly laughed along and told her i still did art and stuff. she said that we should meet up one day again. it hurts, just a bit. it shouldn’t— im glad she’s doing great— but it still does. Just barely. it felt like we’re in completely different worlds. i hate uncovering the past.
speaking of, since we’re back at school, i saw t for the first time since we broke up. i guess ive been seeing a lot of people ive been overthinking all summer :/ she didn’t say anything to me, i didnt say anything to her. i felt mad, but i also didn’t. feelings suck. t dyed her hair again. she kinda looks like romana flowers with the blue hair. im sick of acting like im completely fine. unlike what this is probably reading like, it was a good day. Everything is just complicated.
- r
it was the first day of school for me and that went fine, but that’s not the important part. the thing is my mom took some pictures of me and my brother and posted them on her facebook for the first day of school. then, my mom shows me one of the comments under the post. it’s lily’s mom saying that “lily would love to catch up with r” or whatever (i had lost lily’s number for the past 3ish years) after that, lily called me after my mom gave her my number. lily and me talked to each other after almost 3 fucking years! i thought i was never gonna see her ever again. all my angst late night writing for her to just show up again because of my mom’s facebook!!!?????
and we talked for like 10 minutes, just to catch up. she still does theater, just bigger roles than in elementary of course. she doesn’t like the school she goes to but she’s excited to finally leave off to a new highschool next year. she said she hasn’t thought about our old friend group in forever (wish I could relate). i just kinda awkwardly laughed along and told her i still did art and stuff. she said that we should meet up one day again. it hurts, just a bit. it shouldn’t— im glad she’s doing great— but it still does. Just barely. it felt like we’re in completely different worlds. i hate uncovering the past.
speaking of, since we’re back at school, i saw t for the first time since we broke up. i guess ive been seeing a lot of people ive been overthinking all summer :/ she didn’t say anything to me, i didnt say anything to her. i felt mad, but i also didn’t. feelings suck. t dyed her hair again. she kinda looks like romana flowers with the blue hair. im sick of acting like im completely fine. unlike what this is probably reading like, it was a good day. Everything is just complicated.
- r
