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americasuiteheartswell, the title is a lie cuz im not looking for advice. i already kinda know what i want to do and im using this to finalize it. because for some reason i can only organize my thoughts through shitty notes
okay so, i haven’t been talking to b. there’s no particular reason for it and i don’t think ive been doing it on purpose, but im need to fix this. well, technically she’s sent me like one pin on pinterest of gerard way, but that’s been the extent of it. i want to text her— im going to text her. it’s just hard. idk why but it’s so difficult for me to keep up communication with anyone. i hate holding up conversations through texts or calls. actually, I don’t like real life conversations either. I think I just dislike talking. but the thing is, b hasn’t texted me either. this is a two way street, y’know. b is who i consider my closest friend. a photo of her is in the phone case for pete’s sake, but we kinda drifted apart some. maybe im just paranoid. anyways, i want to text her. omg im so tired but now i have to do this first.
uhhhh, what do i say? maybe like, “hey, sorry i haven’t been really talking to you much. ive just been going through some personal stuff yk. text me whenever you get ur class schedule!!” is that good? do I sound like im making a shitty excuse. what excuse I haven’t done anything! ughhhhh. im not lying or anything; I’ve been going fucking crazy in this house. I hate it here. why am I so pathetic? grr. do I add emojis? b texts with a lot of emojis and I think ive subconsciously picked that trait up while texting her. im having second thoughts now. noooooooooo, this sucks. what if make things awkward????? okay, im keeping that draft and im just gonna sleep on it. no, r, you have to do this. but I also dont want to. okay, sleep on it, got it…
- r
(i have west coast smokers stuck in my head. ive been listening to it on repeat all day. help me😭)
okay so, i haven’t been talking to b. there’s no particular reason for it and i don’t think ive been doing it on purpose, but im need to fix this. well, technically she’s sent me like one pin on pinterest of gerard way, but that’s been the extent of it. i want to text her— im going to text her. it’s just hard. idk why but it’s so difficult for me to keep up communication with anyone. i hate holding up conversations through texts or calls. actually, I don’t like real life conversations either. I think I just dislike talking. but the thing is, b hasn’t texted me either. this is a two way street, y’know. b is who i consider my closest friend. a photo of her is in the phone case for pete’s sake, but we kinda drifted apart some. maybe im just paranoid. anyways, i want to text her. omg im so tired but now i have to do this first.
uhhhh, what do i say? maybe like, “hey, sorry i haven’t been really talking to you much. ive just been going through some personal stuff yk. text me whenever you get ur class schedule!!” is that good? do I sound like im making a shitty excuse. what excuse I haven’t done anything! ughhhhh. im not lying or anything; I’ve been going fucking crazy in this house. I hate it here. why am I so pathetic? grr. do I add emojis? b texts with a lot of emojis and I think ive subconsciously picked that trait up while texting her. im having second thoughts now. noooooooooo, this sucks. what if make things awkward????? okay, im keeping that draft and im just gonna sleep on it. no, r, you have to do this. but I also dont want to. okay, sleep on it, got it…
- r
(i have west coast smokers stuck in my head. ive been listening to it on repeat all day. help me😭)
