“Suicide in your arms.”
Sun, Jul. 27th, 2025 11:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
americasuiteheartsi can never be emotionally close enough to someone. let me flip you inside out and read your guts like a textbook. i wanna cut you open, crawl inside your skin, and die. i think cannibalism as metaphor for love is really fucking overused but i’d let you eat my corpse.
if you can’t tell, all of these entities are written late at night because i like having time to myself at night and i dont think i’d write half the shit i write during the day. sorry if that sentence didn’t make grammatical sense cuz im too lazy to reread anything.
also, the “you” im taking about isn’t really referring to someone. i think i mentioned that before. what am i doing anymore.
i want to die. im sick of living in my head. i want you to love me entirely. this is really shitty stuff and ill cringe later reading this but i dont care. im so sick of everything. i feel so dirty. every time i eat, i want to throw up. ive never purged or anything; im too much of a wimp to do it. im too much of a wimp to cut myself properly. god im an attention seeker. i crave your attention. are you watching me? look at me. what am i writing? ughhhhhhhhhh.
im going off the rails here. is it weird to talk to yourself like it’s a group of people? that’s basically what this is except strangers can actually see this. i don’t think anyone will see this. they better not.
hold me in your arms. i want to be closer to you. these suck a lot, i know. inner monologue, plz stfu. omg— i say omg too much. my friends are sick of me, i know it. i think i’d be better if i just stopped taking to them. i’d be better if i just disappeared off the face of the earth. i hate (love) dreams. why do you keep showing me people? good night.
-r
if you can’t tell, all of these entities are written late at night because i like having time to myself at night and i dont think i’d write half the shit i write during the day. sorry if that sentence didn’t make grammatical sense cuz im too lazy to reread anything.
also, the “you” im taking about isn’t really referring to someone. i think i mentioned that before. what am i doing anymore.
i want to die. im sick of living in my head. i want you to love me entirely. this is really shitty stuff and ill cringe later reading this but i dont care. im so sick of everything. i feel so dirty. every time i eat, i want to throw up. ive never purged or anything; im too much of a wimp to do it. im too much of a wimp to cut myself properly. god im an attention seeker. i crave your attention. are you watching me? look at me. what am i writing? ughhhhhhhhhh.
im going off the rails here. is it weird to talk to yourself like it’s a group of people? that’s basically what this is except strangers can actually see this. i don’t think anyone will see this. they better not.
hold me in your arms. i want to be closer to you. these suck a lot, i know. inner monologue, plz stfu. omg— i say omg too much. my friends are sick of me, i know it. i think i’d be better if i just stopped taking to them. i’d be better if i just disappeared off the face of the earth. i hate (love) dreams. why do you keep showing me people? good night.
-r
